and really comforting is that I AM HERE! i am here in Illinois with my family. I managed to pack our bags on an hour and half's notice, fork over a thousand bucks in airfare change fees (gulp...gulp again), get three little ones packed, dressed and fed (not sure what in the world they wore to the airport or if teeth or hair got brushed, but we made our flight) and we were on our way to illinois.
i was able to see my grandma this morning. i just held her hand and caressed her face and just told her we were all here now and to please make her journey to heaven. i took izzy with me so that the sounds of her babbles and laughter could be in the background, but chose to leave the twins at home with my dad. i want them to remember GG as the happy and healthy GG that they know. that's the way i will remember her and have so many wonderful memories to keep with me.
i am just so relieved to be here. the girls are on their way to go pick up their cousins from school which will create miles and miles of smiles so that thrills me. my grandma's sister and nephews from Georgia made their way up too so we are all just where we need to be.